Looking Back: 2009

So, as we creep ever nearer to the inevitable dawning of 2010, I find it pertinent to look back and reflect upon what sort of year 2009 has been.
Obviously, the year has been arguably the single worst twelve months of my life for every reason listed in 'the book'. Firstly, relationships. I've split up with two girlfriends this year, been messed around, lied to and led on by somany women this year I'm only able to reason that I must be either troll-like in appearance (very likely) or simply a loser (likelier still). The particular pinnacle of my relationships with women this year was the four weeks I spent at home, broken and suffering from severe anxiety, because someone I trusted with all my heart decided they'd abuse me physically and metally for as long as they could get away with whilst my emotions were running haywire from losing Richard.

The saddest time of my life, let alone year.

It is strange to think that we are incapable of comprehending just how much pain one can go through from losing someone until you actually go through it. In many ways, I don't think it will ever stop hurting, yet in others I know that thereis comfort to be found.He is at peace and no longer suffering, and I know that one of the most treasured possessions I have now are the memories we shared.

Academia is pretty much the highlight of my year (bar mathematics, which just blows as usual). Did really well in my A Levels and got my place at De Montfort (epic win), and I'm determined to beat Student Finance, no matter what.

So, my overall impressions? A really poor year for my emotions, but in terms of finding my inner strength and ability to just plow through and get on with my life, not to cast aside, but to acknowledge and remember where deserved (<3). Really, my big comfort this year comes in the form of my friends and family, without whom I really don't know how I could have seen my way through 2009. And so, to al lof my friends I say a resounding thank you - I love you with all of my heart :)